I decided to break my fast a little earlier then expected. I felt ready. I have reached a place where I can accomplish the goals I set out to achieve. The main one was to give my body a much needed break from allergenic foods and junk foods. Wheat products in particular I find makes my body react in an unhealthy way. My number two goal was to acquire the taste for green juices and to get in the habit of making them everyday. This process already started about a year ago but I just wanted to give my taste buds a light speed boost. The next goal was to cleanse. We talked a couple of days ago about colon cleansing. I accomplished this through daily enemas and I was able to release plenty of old, backed up "trash" and also some parasites and candida. This feast was a way for me to get back on track with eating exclusively whole foods and include plenty of raw and living foods. The goal for me is to eat mostly live foods with maybe an occasional soup or some quinoa. Another added benefit that I didn't really predict was really feeling true hunger. I mentioned earlier that sometimes our emotions can trigger signals to eat even when we are not really hungery. Well I know what being hungry really feels like after this juice feast and now I can compare it to the times when I am feeling stressed and need food for grounding and security. Then make an intelligent decision and eat when it's good for my body (especially my tummy) and deal with the emotions in a way that will have a lasting effect.
I approached my "breakfast" with intentionality and love. My whole meditation yesterday was balance and harmony. I now resolve to view my body as a partner not an enemy. I now choose to view my health challenges as signals for me to find balance rather than a problem to solve or a battle to fight. We always hear about the "War" on cancer, AIDS, poverty etc. but why not make peace with these things. Why not change our perspective? Can these things indicate that we have veered off course and knocked off balance?
A word on my own personal health challenge
I am coming to these conclusions after years of research and deep consideration into my own personal health challenge. In 2005 I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) which upsets the balance of the hormones, causes irregular or non-existent cycles, infertility, acne, hirustism and weight gain. At that point I had been suffering from extremely long moon cycles (I'm talking weeks long). The options my doctor gave me were this medication (birth control) or that medication (glucophage, a medicine for diabetics). I wanted neither! And so started a journey of intense learning about the female body, herbs, yoga, meditation, vegan nutrition, minerals, vitamins, antioxidants and so forth. I have used many modalities for healing which all contributed to my drastic improvement.
In short, I have found that we are our own healers and that our dis-eases are just words for "imbalance" and we can restore the balance if we are willing.
This is what I intend to do. I used to look at my body as a battle ground but now I'm calling a truce. Cease fire! I intend to continue on my path through holistic healing and this path has lead me time after time to raw and living foods. There are just too many testimonies of people who have turned their lives around by eating fresh, live, whole fruits, veggies, sprouts, nuts and seeds. PCOS is related to diabetes. Many women with PCOS are insulin resistant and this disrupts the hormonal cycle. But Dr. Gabirel Cousens is healing diabetics in 21 days with raw and living foods. So I know it is possible. I know there will be peace! There will more on this subject to come. I'm just taking the opportunity to get a little up close and personal with you so we can heal ourselves and the world together!
With love and an open heart,
Eranah